I Could Be Bad

I am feeling the urge to have a "bad" streak. Let me explain, for the most part (Mom may not agree) I've been "good" and done mostly everything I've supposed in life, never really stepped too far down the "bad" path. I'm a good Mom, wife, daughter, friend, cousin, niece, daughter-in-law, etc. I do what I'm supposed to.....because I'm supposed too. I've followed all the "cancer rules" and done everything I'm supposed to with all of that......but I'm feeling the urge to do something naughty.

Probably the same as male's "mid-life crisis" with their cars and girlfriends, I just am feeling the urge to go away and get a tattoo or dance all night or have a few extra mind altering products (I haven't drank in forever) and just cut loose.

I know I'm not alone with these feelings, I see lots of cancer patients feel this way at some point in time and I would imagine that someone like me (who does what they are supposed too ALL the time) feels this way once in a while.

I don't want to do anything life altering or illegal, I just want to cut it up. See, if I was a male, I could gather my friends and go out on the town and it would be fine. But that doesn't work for females quite the same, especially 42 yo stay at home, church going, Mom-wife gals.

I don't need a bunch of phone calls telling me not to do anything stupid, because I won't do anything at all, I am just feeling the desire to do something I'm not supposed too do............ still thinking about that tattoo! ;P

Almost forgot, the radiologist came in today with a camera and started taking photos of my....come on guess.......my breasts. I was like "hey, don't you have enough photos of that?" She said my Dr. was so impressed with my skin at this point in radiation that she wanted to take photos to show other Dr's............seriously who HASN'T seen those photos yet??