July 4th

Today is July 4th, last year this same time we went to dinner with some dear friends and then watched the fireworks, talking about what my upcoming year would be like.

This year it's pouring down rain and it's all behind me. That is so strange, you think I would remember every detail, but I don't.....it's funny how your mind does that....forgets tough things. Not completely forgets but makes it so it's like a distant and far memory.

I'm glad I'm done, I feel like I handled it well and I feel like I was pretty strong, but it sucked and just because I don't talk about it all the time or remind people all the time doesn't mean I don't think about it quite a bit. I think it changed my personality a bit, I don't have time for the nonsense people dish out.

I've used cancer to grow personally and to grow strength to let people who need to be out of my life....out. There are just some people that drain me in such a negative way, it's time for them to go.

It's been such a strange July 4th, very rainy and we've had some really funny food today, sushi, egg casserole, pork loin, not the traditional hot dogs, watermelon and potato salad. Goes along with the year, the year of strange untraditional things. And that's ok, it's good to be different once in a while.