Still Having trouble with blog

I'm still having a very hard time getting on this blog, I think I'm changing blogspot, I'm currently blogging at tumblr.com under Fun with Donita...here's what I wrote on tumblr


This last year I battled (and won) breast cancer. But while I was getting rid of all of my cancer, I gained a few things (thank goodness it wasn’t any pounds..) I noticed that one thing I lost, in addition to my cancer, was some of my understanding of my friend foundations.


Friends are tricky, they can let you down and they can pick you up, but strictly by the definition of friend they are supposed to be on your side. I recently found out, that years of friendship doesn’t always mean that friends will be there for you. I'm hoping that it's maybe just a rough spot or maybe friends just grow out of each other.

Here's to some of my dear friends (you know if I'm speaking to you).....if you have to ask "is she talking about me....... then I'm not!"

I don't think it's any secret that I "run" everything by my friends, my thoughts my opinions, my predictions, my fears, because that is my favorite thing about friends. Maybe it's a bit self serving or selfish, but I will gladly do it for any friend of mine any time of the day or night. If you have the patience for my excessive chattiness (just when I'm in the mood) then I have the patience for anything you need from me. If I'm having trouble identifying that you are needing me at that exact moment in time, then tell me, for I can not read minds and I am usually selfishly focused on myself, or at least I have been through this entire cancer thing.

Maybe that's one of the biggest changes in me, I am thinking of myself instead of others and it's throwing everyone off a bit. For that I apologize, but I'm going to continue to be this way for a few more months if you're looking for a change, still give me some time because this cancer has really done a number on me and I'm still healing. If you can't handle that I have/had cancer, then just tell me and let's check back in with each other later down the road. I'm highly forgiving so I probably won't remember that you weren't there for me when I really needed you, one of my good qualities.

That last sentence sounds way more fierce than I mean it, I seriously mean if you can't handle what's going on with me, just tell me that and then I won't feel just ignored or forgotten, that is far worse than to just know you can't deal with it and we'll check back in later, honestly.