Bottom of the "U"

I had a bad day yesterday, it didn't improve, I had more crazy things happen. But as bad as my day was yesterday, it pales in comparison to Haiti. Many prayers for those in Haiti and those on the way to Haiti. Our church has an orphanage there, and I'm fearing the worst, please pray for those poor children and John, the man who runs the orphanage.

After I blogged yesterday, I wished a new friend of mine happy birthday via text. We're friends because she has breast cancer and works with my cousin in Alabama, so we've bonded and we exchange emails and texts, etc. I got a text back from her telling me it wasn't her birthday and she asked me how I knew, I said my cousin had mentioned it to me. Then she asked who my cousin was and I was like "really, how bad is your chemo, you work with her" and then she said, "Donita, this is another Suzy that you know from Hollywood, FL" and I was so embarrassed, I have two Suzy's in a row who's last name both start with W's and I just hit the first one not paying attention.

I went on to ask her how she was, come to find out her husband died (young, a little older than me) from stage 4 colon cancer in December. I couldn't believe it, another cancer victim. Cancer ties us all together and that just made me so sad, AGAIN. I cried so much yesterday my eyes were puffy this morning.

I just hope I didn't make the Suzy from Hollywood, FL sad yesterday, what an idiot I am. Yesterday just reminded me of something our friend said at Pheasant Fest on Saturday night. He said "we're at the bottom of the U". I was like "what??"

He went on to explain that our life was like the letter U and we start with being born on the top of the U and go from there, so in our 40's and 50's we're at the bottom of the U, the hardest, most challenging time of our life. Then we get to go back up the U and supposedly you are as happy at 8 as you are 75. I definitely feel like I'm at the bottom of the U.

I have already been to the hospital this morning, reported there at 6:30AM for another echocardiogram to compare it with the one prior to chemo. I hope it comes out ok, he wouldn't tell me anything. I go at 12:30 back to the hospital to get a CT scan for my radiation template and I get the radiation tattoos. I should have never said I would NEVER get a tattoo. It is true, every time I say that it happens! I hope it doesn't hurt!! I have more appointments next week and I'm hoping to get the orders to take out this flippin port!

Again, pray for your brothers and sisters in Haiti, please.