You wonder.......

When you blog (unless someone sends you a message, comments on the blog, or tell you "I read your blog") you wonder if you are just writing out there to a big gigantic "writing land" or if someone is actually following.

I originally started blogging for me, because I had feelings that I didn't know what to do with, and because I knew that it was going to be hard to be positive all the time and I knew that would be expected of me.

What I have come to realize is my blog is my lifeline. I rely so heavily on comments, they really are my support system. Thank you, thank you for taking the time to 1) read my blog 2) keep up with my blog 3) be my support system.

I do feel like I have hundreds of arms holding me up and it's why I know I can do 28 radiations and I did four chemo's and it's ok that I'm bald and it's ok that I can't drive my kids to everything and be at everything and it's ok for me to miss the things I love because I know that when I'm done all those things I love will still be there for me.