Gauging the Day

I have three different places I set up camp since I had my first surgery.

1) my bed (thought I'd let you see the view)

2) the couch

3) the chair in the front room

The bed indicated that I am physically not feeling well and mentally feeling even worse. I have a bag that holds all "goodies" and I sit myself up, watch annoying tv shows, surf the net and nap (lots).

The couch indicated I am physically a little off and mentally better. I carry my bag downstairs and sit up most of the day.

The chair indicated that I am feeling very strong and healthy, I get up and down and leave the "bag" somewhere else, getting things I need as I need them.

Today's decision of whether or not I am well enough to have this surgery has me in the #1 option. I am so nervous about my decision, I think I'm fine, but what if I'm not.............

I'm to call the office after 2 and we're going to chat about it again. Then I call the hospital between 5-6 to find out what time I need to be there tomorrow morning IF I have the answer to the first question of whether or not I am well.

I think I'm well, I have no stuffiness and I am not draining, but I sound nasal. Sometimes in the morning I am just nasal. I wish I had a better grasp on how nasal I am on a regular basis before knowing I had to make this decision.

As long as we're talking about this, you know I LOVE my surgeon and totally respect all that's going on. Someone asked me if I knew a second surgery was possible. Nope, don't recall that at all, but as Whitney says, "You always need a little tweeking." I am sure it came up at some point and I just didn't listen. But I know now and if anyone else benefits from this knowledge, that's all that matters to me!

I had a dream, you know those jars of the jelly stuff that makes the farting noise? Kids love them and they are slimy and a little bit funny. Anyway, I had a dream that I sneezed out a glob of that. I showed to everyone and everyone put it in their hands, trying to decide what color it was. You know what happened, it was a different color in everyone who held it's hands. I think my dreams are pretty straight forward, I clearly do NOT know that I am qualified to make this decision! I think I'm fine and going forward tomorrow and let them decide at the last minute whether they think I should have it or not.

And I took an extra xanax today. :O)