Have you ever thought about a "luck filter?" You wish people, "good luck" you have "lucky" charms, you call it "luck" but is luck always what you need? It goes the other way too...... "that's just her luck." I wish there was a "luck filter" where you could choose just good luck instead of just plain "luck."
I've been asked a couple of times if the lymph nodes were clean, why the chemotherapy and radiation. I personally think it has to do with my friend Luck, although medicine will justify it differently.
It's because those little radical cells are just that, radical. If there is even the slightest chance that one of those little guys escaped the knife and "scoopectomy" then they like to relocate in the body. For those with triple negative, they like to migrate towards the brain.
My brain has a hard enough time on it's own functioning, it doesn't need any help from radical cancer cells! Plus, we all know how unwell that usually works out. Soooooo, the chemo is still on, followed by radiation. Not the cool new radiation that is done locally and less painfully, but the old fashioned " burn the hell out of you" kind (again, Luck).
I have accepted the fact that Luck chooses me, I don't choose it.
I celebrate "luck" with the lymph nodes, as with life, it's always a give and take. I win a ton of raffles, have a wonderful life and things always seem to pan out. I seem to find the "lucky" slot machines. And most importantly, I had good luck with the technician who found the evil spot.
What I would like is the ability to draw the line with luck or have a luck filter that only allows for "good" luck.
At least "luck" is not biased, it remains a constant in my life, always around. I have found out how lucky I am, I have friends/family all around the world and I feel very lucky about that as I take every step of this pink path.
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