Thursday morning we got up to go get my white blood count shot and I was well on my way to a collapse. I was so weak, so nausea, so white.......... so bad. I barely made it home from the shot and I could not WALK, I mean I couldn't do anything. Thank goodness for the bestest man on the planet, Whitney, he had to be me and him that day. I remember coming home and barely making it into bed and then I remember Friday and that's about it. I know I couldn't feed myself or hold anything and I was so very sick. Cold-hot-cold-hot crying sleeping for 48 hrs straight.
It really scared me, I'm tough to keep down, I mean surgery and I'm going that day, babies-that day, nothing keeps me down. I met my match.
Next time I will get my shot sooner, so I shouldn't "crash" quite as bad. They say it's cumulative, which I don't mind telling you scares the bejesus out of me. I couldn't feed myself or walk how much worse can it get? I know, a little drama queen here, but never have I been that way ever!!
Ok, so that's where I've been, in bed, not watching tv or sneaking in facebook, just trying to make it. This morning I got up at 7:30am and had a regular breakfast, did three loads of laundry, watered the flowers and guess where I am..............back in bed. :(
I have no taste buds, they seem to have already left, I can only tell the difference between hot and cold and my hair is leaving rather quickly. Eating lots of ice and not brushing my hair.
This is a path for sure, I guess it will take me and my family a while to navigate down it, I tell you one thing, I pray that they find a cure and that no one has to suffer, NO ONE should have to feel this way, ever.
I really can feel your prayers and love and thoughts wrapped around me. Whitney needs them too, so do the boys, I think that it scared everyone pretty bad.................strong Mom..... DOWN!
Donita--sounds like you had a tough round. From my experience, the effects were not cumulative. Each round of chemo was different for me and the last one was the easiest (we joked that as soon as I finally figured it out, it was over). I got the shot the day after chemo--definitely helped. do you have Jack in the Box in Florida? sounds funny, but my favorite food for the days after chemo became their fruit smoothies, so there's my recommendation. Hang in there!
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