Buying Time

Probably not the best of titles, but I mean it in a good way. I am simply buying my time these last couple of days and the next couple of weeks until the surgery. Meanwhile, life continues, I continue to have meetings many nights of the week, I continue to have to drive everyone everywhere, and I continue to go about life as though the giant elephant is taken up residence somewhere other than all of my conversations with people. It's been a pleasant break, like people forgot! William started his sophomore year of high school today and I refuse to miss just one event of high school. These are the fun years, I spent the last 15 years getting ready for the fun years, hell if I'm missing them now!!! I did go get my nails done with no color (in prep for surgery) haven't not had color in 15-20 years. Then I colored my hair a darker color, closer to my natural color, and NO ONE has noticed or said a word. Guess I'd better reexamine my color when/if the hair falls out and I get a "redo".

I love Julia, she has taken on my surgery,chemo, radiation planning with such skills. Apparently there is a website you can set up to sign up for things, I just want to hug her, so appreciated! Note to people who live near me, you'll be getting that link pretty soon. xoxo

So when I was getting my nails done, there was a VERY loud plumb 55ish lady in there with a purple streak in her hair. I am not exceptionally chatty at the nail salon, I like to read the gossip magazines and get all caught up on Brittney and Lindsey. Anyway she is incessantly commenting on how she matched her purple hair with her nails, which are now a nice shade of purple. Again, I just want to read.

We get all done and go to the nail drying section and here is our conversation:

"What color did you get?" Crazy purple lady

"Clear" Donita

"Why clear?" Crazy purple lady (CPL)

"Because it's none of your freaking business" ECT Then Donita actually said " because I'm having surgery."

"What kind of surgery?" CPL

"Breast surgery" ECT

"Oh, wow, are you getting bigger boobs, do you really think you need bigger boobs, don't you know it will hurt your back later." (I know, I wanted her to breathe also) CPL

"I am having a lumpectomy I have breast cancer." ECT

"Oh, I USED (key word) be an oncologist nurse, are you scared you should be scared do you need to talk to someone" (this time I was hoping for a blue face and no air) CPL

"I'm good" ECT

"No you paused (yea because I want to rip out your purple hair and I am trying not to respond to you) I know your scared, I can see it in your eyes." CPL

"Really, I have sunglasses on and I'm good." ECT

"You can't hide behind those glasses (the hell I can't)" CPL

"I used to give patients their chemo and go to the bathroom and throw up because chemo is awful and your going to be so sick and your going to look the worst you have ever looked." CPL

"Why would you tell someone that?" ECT

and with that, I got up and walked out. WHY do people do this?????