It's a new day

and I'm so glad it's a new day. Something interesting happened this weekend, you met my evil cancer twin (ECT) who seems to have emerged from the past, she's been around before (evil pregnancy twin, evil moving twin, evil life is shitty twin) but she's now got a new agenda, and it's the cancer. She moves in when fear gets the best of just happy go lucky (most of the time) Donita. She's evil and inconsiderate and ungrateful and very selfish, but thank goodness she's back in her hiding place and happy positive Donita is back. I'm sure she will re-emerge but one thing that really keeps her away is humor and regular life, who has time to dwell on cancer??

I love my family, they make me laugh and really don't allow me the luxury of having any sort of pity party for the TNBC.

I haven't worked out in two weeks and let me tell you it was AWESOME to be back at the gym, thank you SHONDELLE, best trainer EVER!!! I have a new walking friend, she's a cancer survivor as well, so she's fun to walk with and she "gets it" like few do.

It has been suggested to me to go about life and not let the cancer win, so I've decided that the best I can, I will do just that, go on as though the giant cancer elephant is still at the zoo. The great thing about this blog is if I want to talk about it, you will know!

Today I am fine with losing my hair, I mean it's just hair, it's not an arm or a leg or a lung, it comes back. I am ok with looking different and I can be strong for everyone who can't be because that's how I roll.

I am just patiently waiting for Carmen at scheduling to call me with a lumpectomy date so we can get this party started. I am wearing what my Mom refers to as my "Garfield smile" right now.......surely Carmen has all contact numbers for me right??!!

Let me go on record and just let you all know, yesterday (by FAR) was the hardest day for me thus far, but I really am better today. I love my life, I have the perfect life, the perfect husband, perfect children, perfect friends, perfect family (most of you), and I really mean that, so I'm ready to get this going so I can be done and continue with this perfect life I've been blessed with. oxxo